I have wanted to do my M.Ed for years. I’ve been toying with the idea forever, but have always found reasons not to – mainly financial reasons. Last night my father called me at 9:30 pm, scaring the crap out of me (“why are people calling at 9:30? It must be an emergency!”) and informing me that they are going to help me to pay for my Masters’. They’re giving the same amount to my brother and sister. They’ve decided to give us all our ‘inheritance’ early, while they’re around to see us enjoy it. It’s not an enormous amount by most standards, but it makes all the difference in the world to me. Absolutely enough to get me started and I am so very excited (yeah, let’s see how I feel about that when I’m doing a university degree and working full-time) and completely terrified. I haven’t been in university since 1999. What if I have no clue what I’m doing and fail at everything? AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
No, but I am so happy. And so, so, so grateful.
Congratulations! Starting new learning projects always lights my fire. I hope you have fun!
Thank you, Debbie.
When I went back to university (also when your age), I found that my first class was in a huge auditorium. I looked in, gulped, and found the nearest restroom. People were milling about, but I locked myself in a stall and cried my eyes out as quietly as I could manage. Then I went back to the auditorium, climbed that long road of steps to the top and put my head down on the desk. I was like that for about a week of classes.
By the end of the second week things became routine enough that I actually got bored during some of the lectures–which is perfectly normal and a sign I was recovering from my acute case of nerves. Thank god for tedious lecturers.
It wouldn’t even be as scary as that – it’s all distance/Internet, so I wouldn’t even have to really interact with people all that often. I’m just afraid of the work and whether I’ll still be able to do it! I feel as though my brain might have atrophied or something. I don’t know. I’m a catastrophizer
You are SUPER BRAVE, going back and having to be around PEOPLE!
This is really exciting. I’m thrilled for you! My hubby went back to school and got his MBA. He loves school and loves to learn. It was a wonderful thing for him and I hope it is the same for you. Education is something that can never be taken away from you so it’s always beneficial to have more. Congrats!
Thank you thank you! I’m still excited and still terrified.